JOURNAL 210303 08:20-09:46
L111
X letter
The moment My Own Life came to centre.
Baby, I want to share with you a page on my journal. I want to show you something I have never seen before. I am right now actually sitting down and writing this as we speak. As you are reading this, no matter when or where, know that we are communicating real-time. Here we go.
Baby, this place is exciting and I want to take you there. Just like to all those places we have been.
This place is so awesome that it feels like everything in our own life comes to one point. We talk about it often, and I am at this very moment experiencing it. These words are the very thoughts in my head right now.
I want to talk to you about all the big words: Destiny, synchronicty, miracles, purpose… all the good stuff.
Baby, remember the movie Slumdog Millionaire? Everything is connected and if you can see it, you open your eyes to the truth and miracle of life.
I just realised something. The past few synchronicities have been feeling different. They have picked up on their intensity. The last one we had with one another, felt to me, to be the most intense in the sense that it cuts closest to my core. I am in delight to find us closer and purer. This is the thing that gives me true delight. To me, this is that stuff I want out of being alive (Alive). Resonance to the centre can be recognised with picking up on an uncommon feeling. Being in the presence of lightness and centredness brings the mind into a clarity that cuts through difficult life lessons with such ease as knife through warm butter. This realisation is so starkly different from everyday consciousness it stands out for anyone to see when walking down the path. It is the beacon that never sleeps.
Here we go. I want to first tell you about something that happened yesterday. I received some books I ordered and out of them (there were about 10 of them there in a box) I took out Steiner’s. In the preface I noticed the author thanking his wife for translating alongside with him. I had a laugh as the past few days, the word “Jupiter” came up several times out of no where (Wachowski’s most infamous film Jupiter ascending, Joe’s daughter, planetary seal podcast with Gigi Young). At that time, I still hadn’t realised what it all meant. Seeing the book has arrived, it brought up my interest to re-listen to Gigi Young’s interview on Steiner’s planetary seals.
This morning, as we speak, this is a place I am finding myself. I woke up early this morning and came down to put myself in a focus zone. In some sense, I felt an inspiration. I at down and put myself through my ritual. Today, I chose what have been my favourites: E1AP and this podcast. I started them at the same time and subconsciously I was interested to see if any interesting synchronicities might spring out…
The state this ritual puts me into is closer and closer to lightness found in ASM. The way (a dove just walked by our window) I know for myself to find my way back to Centerdness. (Gigi just spoken the word “meditation”) These synchroncities give me real satisfying delight. Something that feeds me. As I come into this state, I just saw something I want to share with you now. A feeling I know you must know when I tell you about it, even with clumsy words. I know because a few days ago you uttered these words out of the blues. I remember crystal clearly this was the very first time you said these words. (L110).
When you are inside this lightness, extremely subtle tensions, nestled deepest in our psyche reveal themselves. When this happens, the body instinctively moves to soothe it. As we already know, everything is connected in one infinite cosmic ocean, so are these tensions. Now, imagine the movement the body moves through in releasing them. (I find mine mostly around my left chest where my heart is!) This “dance” is that slow dance with yourself. This is the moment you begin to feel so intimate with your entire being, when “you” are so free and cleaned of spots, so bare that we will feel a deep sense of love. In the presence of this feeling I feel (*** as I was writing this 08:31, THIS EXPERIENCE happened).
As these delights come through, I am feeling myself lighter and lighter as I dance in this Lightness.
I was writing a letter to BF. When I concentrate I like to have my focus ritual. The way I put myself into resonance, I find a piece of music and a podcast which I find that pulls me to a higher place, one as pure as I can find in this Lightness. When I was writing about this, the playlist (E1AP) changes to Reason or Rhyme (see letter to BF & L104) at the same time the podcast rather auspiciously came to the word “Transcendent”, a subject so brilliantly explained by Gigi Young.
The very rich feeling of coming face to face with my own destiny, the wonderment that must be in my eyes inside this grand cosmic connectedness, and the very reassuring feeling that however in the grip of the illusion of “reality” that preys on the fear of separateness; this Connection is always present, out of sight and our other tactile senses. It can only be felt when inside Lightness one can consciously create. Seeing this puts me in amazement. Its a flash but does not completely fades out; its echo can always be heard as long as we allow ourselves and let ourselves sort of fall into it. Learn to dance with it.
(Love is the drug came on when Gigi said “know thyself” (Matrix)
These synchronicities are truly pointers. Right now, it is coming apparent to me the thin red line that threads through everything. Being in resonance to this frequency is extremely pleasurable. A place I am bring you to next. Just like all the cool places we have been. (Everything)
I have been thinking deep and hard about the most precious gift to you. I know you don’t care for diamonds even though you do appreciate some nice things ;-)
This.
This feeling right now. This connection we hold in our very core that you will never have to fear you would lose. Because the truth is you just cannot lose it. We will always find our way back to each other because we are locking onto each other in resonance.
This feeling is rich, like a deep breath of country air, full of all the goodness of life. This feeling is so intimate it possesses the power to soothe in ways that is free of constriction. Full. The eyes begin to open to the truly miraculous show that is life.
Baby, I have never experienced a synchronicity quite like this one right now. Like the continual movement in ASM, they are beginning to string together. From yesterday (Steiner, BF) to this morning, I feel like I am experiencing a protracted synchronicity! This feeling of connectedness is no longer flashes. It is beginning to feel more like a roadmap pushing me down a direction. (First letter)
To me, being your twinflame and finding each other is the highlight of my life. To me this is what being alive is about. To find this connection. Without you, I will never have known to do this. Keeping that big promise to you is the highest priority to me. To see that I am holding in my hands the absolute best gift I have for you - is truly an amazing feeling.
To see how everything strings together is truly a thing of beauty. Maybe, this is what Solshnithc talked about. (Beauty will save the world). Baby, it is so beautiful, tears fall out as I am writing this.
This is the place we are heading next. Dress up. Let’s take some pictures.
JC
P.S. Not right to end a love letter without a P.S. This song came on just as I was finishing the letter. I can’t help break out laughing ! Don’t I always tell you this is the song I hear when you enter the room? (MV3.7)
(Ended on Alive Remix)
Next clue: Pyramid
Playlist: E1AP
Podcast: https://youtu.be/HpJRB7fXLBA
Transcending it (13:00)
Rocket (re-listen 26:50)
Started playlist 08:20
Who you are 27:50 You and you will
Rare quiet morning. Memphis is off to school during lockdown restrictions. One day/week